Insan bernama Teman

Hati ini
Semakin lama semakin jauh dari kau
Tidak ku pasti samada 
Kau yang menjauh 
Atau aku


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Semakin sepi kau tinggalkan 
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Kau sengaja 
Atau aku sengaja


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Tiada titik tolak lagi ku rasakan 
Kau dan aku bukan lagi pasangan yang pasti 
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Ini kehendak kau 
Atau sudah suratan 


Langkah demi langkah 
Kita daki bersama 
Jatuh terluka kau sambut tanganku 
Terima kasih atas kesakitan 
Yang telah kau berikan 
Tidak ku pasti samada 
Ini luka yang setimpal 
Atau kebencian kau pada aku 


Air mata menjadi permata 
Kebencian menjadi nyata 
Ini lah hidup di dalam dunia
Bersendirian 


Selamat tinggal kasih sayang 
Terima kasih atas pengalaman 
Yang kau berikan 


Kerana kau yang ku damba 
Insan yang bernama TEMAN


#tears

Terima Kasih, heart.

Life is hard. 'Tough' is better. These days, I got lost with my new world. Being a Perwakilan Pelajar is not really a good thing. Indah khabar dari rupa. I found that standing in this pose, it makes me a different Khairun. I am totally not the same person. B Personally, I have changed a lot which me myself couldn't recognize myself. I am trying my best to be a better person, which makes me change from one part to another part. 

Just finishing with the Minggu Pengurusan Pelajar KPLI. Tiring and stressing. I have no time for my friends and for my class. And even not for myself. Somehow, I really feel bad for this situation. People start to call me 'sombong' which is not. People start to give me annoyed entitle and when I start to ignore that silly jokes, they tend to call me 'berlagak', which is also a big no no for me. 

Dear People, I am who I am. Yes, I have changed. It is not because I am a JPP today that makes me changed, but trust me, responsibility do make you a matured person. Nobody loves to be called 'sombong' which is which like you are being called a peacock. Heh.

Do stand in my shoes, and then you will know how's that feeling. Trust me. 

#Cahya Surfiqah

Dear buah hati

How're you doing these days? Urm, I mean, since the last time we met. Haha, which is berkurun yang lalu. I just hope that you're doing great there, physically and mentally. I created this post especially for you whom I love the most too. Knowing you is one of the greatest moment in my almost 20 years' life. It was quite tough before; at time when we still try to be in each other's heart, and at last, we couldn't. Remember? Haha, yeah to make friends  is easy, but to keep them, it isn't. And, to have friends here and there can be delight, but to have one at your side (in need and indeed). Same goes to you and me. Kan kan :') We have passed our straitened time years ago. And praised be to Allah, that He allow us to go through that level dengan jayanya. It do take time. A year, 3, or 5 years. Yet, it still worth enough, to love and to be loved by person whom we love the most. 

You are fair enough to love your friends that much, as well as you love your family. Believe me, you gonna hurt yourself one day. Whoever that friend of yours that you've been telling me, I believe she isn't bad. Betul tak? It's just that you love her badly that you couldn't accept to be hurt by her. I have feel it before. And I know, whatever it is, she still has no intention to hurt you. Or to annoy you. Annoy? Hahaha, kasar rasa bunyinya ;p 

Sayang, be strong and stand firm for yourself. Please remind yourself that you have me to ask for a shoulder. And, Allah is here to lighten you for whatever burden you have. Do take care of yourself. I'll pray for your happiness and secure each seconds. InsyAllah. 

Love,

khai comel :')

A Happy Ending.

Firstly, Alhamdulillah. Nothing much to be said now. It's all in here (heart). How relieve m i, can be read through my eye; and my smile as well. Praised be to Hi, (Allah), for His willingness to still give me successes even I'm hardly obey Him. I take it positively that He might still wanna give me chances to see His mighty. And alhamdulillah, I know that I am nobody without Him. Thank you Allah. Actually, when the result web was on, and waited for me to surf it, I was like 'should I?' or 'shouldn't I?'. I was shacking all over the body. And at that time my parent were sleeping just beside me. I just afraid that if I failed that exam, how was I supposed to tell them. It is not easy at all. 'Mak, abah, I FAILED' with the disappointing face :'(. Is it that? Arghh. Just imagine it. But, at last. I woke up my mom, and said 'Mak, Alhamdulillah' sambil tunjuk my laptop yang I dah paparkan terus result tu. Eheh, alhamdulillah again.

Secondly, I am thankful that I can't expressed it through words for my lecturers' helps that actually are the main reason why I can stand here strongly. During the exam time, I was likely an angel who was just sweet-tempered. hehe. Smile there, smile here. Just to make sure that people (especially my lecturers) to not hate to see my face. At least sejuk hati looking at me will be enough. Their pray are my key of success.

Thirdly, my parent whom I think is the best parent ever in this world. Hehe of courselah kan, cause they are mine. kan kan. Hehe. They stay at my side whenever I feel like 'Oh, what if I fail, mom?' and 'Abah, do you still love me even if I fail the exam?'. Haha, terrible betul.

And, that's how my wait ended.
Pass or Fail is a matter for me. It really determines my future. And, here I am. Alhamdulillah, again and again.

:')

*This post is put here to remind me of the feeling, so that I will work harder next time. InsyAllah. Bye.