YOU.

I love you. And forever will do. Even distance make us far apart, I just hope that our heart will never fail to connect to each other. I really hope that you and I will forever be together. I pray. InsyAllah. 

p/s: One day, if anything happen to me, i just hope that this post will remind me of you. That, I have someone who I love deeply, and he is YOU. 

NZ

Dear Allah.

Dear Allah. I had fought a lot these few days for my exam. I had put huge effort on it. Just to make sure that i'm not the failure one. I have been quite kind these days. With my willingness, just to ensure your bless to me. I'm counting on my days. I'm waiting for the result for which i am stand for. A failure or a winner. Nothing much that i could ask for. I'm just asking for my future to be successful as the others. I know that i'm not your obedient servant. But, yet i still believe that you will never disappointing your servant. And that is why i keep praying and asking for my future. I believe; there's NO in each of my pray, it'll only be "YES, this is the best for you" or "YES, but not for this timing. I'll reserve something better for you." Ouch, how kind Allah is to us and to me as well. Wallahualam. And last, dear Allah, thank you for being at my side, in my soul, and along my journey for all this timing. I am really nobody without you. Thank you Allah. Please serve the best for me, while i'll keep my promise to be a good servant to you. Please ya Allah. Please.

Wordless #2

tears of heart.

I knew. We can't be close earlier. I knew it. But if I knew earliest that our 'close' relationship will end like this, I won't be close to u. It's hurt. Having u next to me physically not emotionally. Watching u play this and that, laugh endless and share things with others, while ignoring me at the same time, is not a good thing to be done to a non-heartless girl like me. If u could know how much had u hurt me. I am very sensitive with all of your action. I am very particular with each of your appreciation towards me. I haven't left anything yet. But, who knows what is inside your heart. Where's my wrong. How could u ignored me after what had we gone trough together all this while. I wish to have u again. I wish to be the first to know your feelings, your anger, your sadness. I wish to be at your side whenever u need someone. I wish to have u whenever I need someone too. I wonder if u could know how many things I wish to get again from u; just like usual. I wonder. 

I cry. And I wipe it. So that you won't see it. 

RINDU.

Rindu
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