tears of heart.

I knew. We can't be close earlier. I knew it. But if I knew earliest that our 'close' relationship will end like this, I won't be close to u. It's hurt. Having u next to me physically not emotionally. Watching u play this and that, laugh endless and share things with others, while ignoring me at the same time, is not a good thing to be done to a non-heartless girl like me. If u could know how much had u hurt me. I am very sensitive with all of your action. I am very particular with each of your appreciation towards me. I haven't left anything yet. But, who knows what is inside your heart. Where's my wrong. How could u ignored me after what had we gone trough together all this while. I wish to have u again. I wish to be the first to know your feelings, your anger, your sadness. I wish to be at your side whenever u need someone. I wish to have u whenever I need someone too. I wonder if u could know how many things I wish to get again from u; just like usual. I wonder. 

I cry. And I wipe it. So that you won't see it.