suatu penantian.

yeayy. finally.
after almost half of century
i'm facing problem with the blog *sigh

and today,
arghhh.
LEGA.

ps: hari tu macam banyak nak tulis. tapi tak boleh bukak. and hari ni dah boleh bukak tapi tak tahu nak tulis ape -.-'

tipu dosa, kan.

bukan niat untuk menipu. 
tak pernah terlintas pun. 
tahu dah, menipu tu memang berdosa.
tapi tipu untuk kebaikan. 


tolong. fikir sebelum tuding jari. 
ade otak, pakai. 
bukan biar berkarat.


kalau salah, minta maaf. 
bukan tulis dalam blog. 
itu style orang pengecut, bro! 


marah? tak. 
tapi one thing, please
be in my shoes.

noted- khai

Love isn't hurt.

Two years ago Chris Medina’s girlfriend became his fiance when he popped the question at Starbucks where she worked. Unfortunately in October of 2009 Juliana Ramos was driving home from work, at about 3:30 am. Her car was struck leaving her almost paralyzed and severely brain damaged. The wedding was placed on hold, due to her health and the rising medical costs. It is so sad as the couple seemed to be so happy.

this song is dedicated by Chris Medina to his beloved fiance :'( 

Anywhere you are, I am near

Anywhere you go, I'll be there

Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see

How every single promise I keep

Cuz what kind of guy would I be

If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words

If you really don't mean them

When you say them

What are words

If they're only for good times

Then they don't

When it's love

Yeah, you say them out loud

Those words, They never go away

They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me

And I know I'm meant to be where I am

And I'm gonna be

Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side

I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words

If you really don't mean them

When you say them

What are words

If they're only for good times

Then they don't

When it's love

Yeah, you say them out loud

Those words, They never go away

They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near

Anywhere you go, I'll be there

And I'm gonna be here forever more

Every single promise I keep

Cuz what kind of guy would I be

If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

I didn't hope you to do the same thing. Just love me the way I love you :') 

-khai

Everyday's Love.

Motherhood is tough 24 hour job,no pay,no day off, sometimes it is unappreciated, but yet resignation is impossible. *copy! 


She was really born to bring the joy, the happiness, the cheerfulness into the home named 'family'. Mak, I am glad to have you as my only mother in this world. Allah knows how much times I thanked him everyday  for giving you in my life. Your smile, your tears, and even your anger, means a lot to me. I know that I am not as good as along, angah and kakak. But I hope could know how hard am I doing here to make you proud to have me as your daughter. Yes, I am a bad daughter (even you have never mentioned that, but it still kinds of sedar diri). Erm, but you never complained or said bad things to me. Once, you cried beside of me when I was lying in pain at the hospital, I heard your cry and I saw your tears. How hurt I am to see you with the tears because of me. Mak, if one of us should go first, I'll choose to be the one. I could never wonder how can I live without you. But sometimes I hope that you will go first, so that I can take care of you until the end of your life and pray for you. But but, I can't. I can't live without you, mak. And abah as well. 


Please Allah, give me chances to love Mak and Abah until the day of me no breath anymore. I really love you. Really. I would do anything to see you smile. InsyAllah. 

Rock-Hearted.

Friends. Easier made than kept. Since I was small, I used to be surrounded by friends. which they really make my life like a life should be. But, the more I grew, the harder I found life is to be. Especially when it comes to a relationship which called friendship. Honestly, to keep a friendship is harder, tougher, annoying-er (is there any word that can shows the level of the annoying here?) to be compared with the ehem-ehem relationship. Sometimes, I know that she loves me. Sometimes, I just can feel that the love exists if there's no one else that she can lay her love to. err, like 'habis madu sepah dibuang'. It hurts most of the time. Mom said that friend is just like the engine. When it is hot, it can be good. But it can't be too hot, or else it will burn you and the engine might as well. Kind of difficult to be understand, kan? Huh, me too. Everyday, I keep that feeling and try to make sure that nobody could realize the gap that I tried to build between she and me. I tried to not love her so much because it hurts when she doesn't realize the love of me. Erm, I do learn a lot on how life supposed to go and how friendship supposed to be. And I thought myself to love myself much more better than I love her. Because that will makes her to love me more ;) 


*If we are meant to be together along those 8semester, then I will make sure that you will love me more than I  do. That is better! (HAHA, evil laugh)